Retail therapy

These past weeks have been awful for me, in terms of how I feel. My boyfriend is emotionally unavailable, my best friend is always busy, and I missed a therapy session with R. I'm feeling unstable and nothing seems to help.

My history of self-harm

I first attempted self-harm when I was in college. It was my sophomore year, and I had problems academically, with my mom, my friends, and my love life. I didn't know how to cope except by drinking.When I got home after another night of drunkenness, my mother slapped me around and said she wished she had aborted me when she had the chance.